Sometimes i am weak though to put love aside and everything is uncontrolled. Love is not everything.
somehow i realized that love isnt everything..if we forget who creates the 'love' itself. The Creator.
I realized i am not a-so-perfect spouse but i am trying my best to be one. Maybe my car accident is a little warning from Him to be a better muslim. It were twice. A warning that i still under His protection and for me to remember where am i came from. I felt so terrible until a tears came down but those crystal tear didnt comfort me at all. I felt worse. I hope i can be a better person, a better muslim in a special context. Semoga dipermudahkan diri untuk menjadi yang lebih baik. In sha Allah.
Went to facial treatment. Buat acne facial. Sumpah derita gila. I screamed, i pinched myself like crazy due to the pain but in front of the beautician, my expression kind a cool. Muehehe.
The beautician asked me ' sakit tak dik?' i just liked 'hmmm..tak..sikit je.tak rasa sangat pun', ' okay jerrr'. Tapi air mata mengalir. What the.... Nope i dont cry! Just keep monolog to myslf 'beauty is pain..beauty is pain'.
Finally when the session is over, i was just like screaming 'yes!' and ' hooreyy!' accidently. The beautician laughed. Uhhh tak jadi pretend cool dan semua lakonan tadi. But overall everything when fine and i definitely come back for the second treatment T_T i guess.
Tonight i am craving for a fresh orange juice. Pleaseeeeee T_T